Thursday, January 27, 2011

I am officially crazy.

I did a crazy thing, something I've never done before.

Nak pengsan. Seriously.
blush  (blsh)
intr.v. blushed, blush·ing, blush·es
1. To become red in the face, especially from modesty, embarrassment, or shame; flush.
2. To become red or rosy.
3. To feel embarrassed or ashamed: blushed at his own audacity.
1. A reddening of the face, especially from modesty, embarrassment, or shame.
2. A red or rosy color: the blush of dawn.
3. A glance, look, or view: thought the painting genuine at first blush.
4. Blusher.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

I'm scared.

But I should really give it a try. So I won't regret later.

... and suddenly my stomach made a strange twitch.

I wish I was a neutron bomb, for once I could go off
I wish I was a sacrifice but somehow still lived on
I wish I was a sentimental ornament you hung on
The Christmas tree, I wish I was the star that went on top
I wish I was the evidence, I wish I was the grounds
For 50 million hands upraised and open toward the sky

I wish I was a sailor with someone who waited for me
I wish I was as fortunate, as fortunate as me
I wish I was a messenger and all the news was good
I wish I was the full moon shining off a Camaro's hood

I wish I was an alien at home behind the sun
I wish I was the souvenir you kept your house key on
I wish I was the pedal brake that you depended on
I wish I was the verb 'to trust' and never let you down

I wish I was a radio song, the one that you turned up
I wish...
I wish...

Monday, January 17, 2011

Oh. my. It's heartbreaking. Found out a frustrating truth.

And now he just lost 1/2 his charm on me. Still have some, but I don't think I want to have a miniature version of him anymore. Sedih ok. (Still love talking to him though)

Found out that he's not really a nerd. Not quite a geek either. :(

Damn he's smooth. Really smooth.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

I'm happy. Just in case you're wondering.

So stop annoying me to death with the stupid questions. And stop worrying about my love life.

I feel blessed of what I have, and what I don't have. No, I didn't shut myself off marriage - if it happens, it happens. The point is, I'm happy. Why can't you people be happy for me? My younger sister is getting married, and there are some people who kept on asking, "Are you okay with that?" And I was like.... huh? Okay with what? "With your sister getting married?"

Why shouldn't I? I was even more excited preparing for the wedding than her!

And then there's question, "Nampak je ok, dalam hati mana kita tau.." which I don't even know how to reply. Should I say "oh yes, dalam hati saya sangat sedih dan terluka and so jealous and I feel like I want to kill myself."? or should I weep in front of the person and wail like a crazy woman? Or should I just pull my hair out?

Now I know how hard it is to convince people, so I'm not going to.

I am a true believer that only when you start loving yourself, then people will love you. I love myself more than ever now, and I have plenty of people around me who love me very much. So don't worry okay! :)

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Door opened.


"Can I ask something?" he nervously said.
"Sure, come in."

*showed his blue Ipad (that matches the colour of his sweater - swoon!).*
"It stated that my 2010 leaves were 6, so does that mean that I have 24 leaves in total for 2011?"

I looked at the ipad, and nodded. Of why he asked - remains a mystery to me.

"Okay, thanks." He flashed his 1 million-watt smile and dashingly left the room.

I grinned back, and dashingly turned to her-who-sat-next-to-me and said:

"OMG. That's an ipad."and it completes his nerdy way to the T!

"I didn't even hear what he asked. I was looking at the ipad." she said.

"He.. he... he... me too! Dia sangat comel ok." Ops. Did I just say that out loud? Muahaha.

"Oh! Yes! He's so cute!" she said, gigling and mimicking his Can I ask you something. Haha.
"If he's an Indian I would totally flirt with him haha.".. and she gave me the wink. LOL!

"I don't know why, he reminds me of that cute little boy being dressed up to school by his mama. So cute! Just. look. at. him!" I said. and giggled.

"Hahaha! Jahat la you kak miya.  He's my type, you know. With his sweaters, and his nerdy glasses, coupled with his ipad. So geeky! I always fall for the nerdy ones."

"... and I always fall for the bad guys hahahaha. So.. should I change my type now? He.. he.. he.."

 :) You see, you made my day, without having  to do anything!

Wednesday, January 05, 2011

When you've met a nice-looking guy with a good job and a good smile, you thought he could be 'the one' so you gave it a try. You went out with him for lunch, chatted on various topics and laughed at few good jokes. You should end the lunch with some great, happy thoughts right?

In this case, I was bored, and only wished for the lunch to end sooner. Perhaps more lunches and more talking would improve, but I doubt it still. I shouldn't compare, really, but I tend to be more bubbly and chatty whenever the miniature-in-my-pocket guy talks and grins and jokes, and he always managed to make me grin and twirl like a schoolgirl. Cute, isn't it? Hahaha!

Hmm. There must be something wrong with me then. :P Oh boy. This ICOMYM thingy is really creeping me out. *runs to hide*