Friday, May 30, 2008

Saya sangat2lah suka quilling technique walaupun quilling tools kat malaysia ni susah sangat nak cari. Tapi sebab minat, kenalah improvise jugak kan.

Ini explanation on what quilling is all about...
According to wisegeeks
Handcraftersvillage
Quilled Creations

I'm going to share the steps of making quilled roses. Sebenarnya banyak cara nak buat quilled roses, but I found this to be the easiest way, sebab 1. yang diperlukan hanya gunting, kertas dan gam dan 2. berbeza dengan yng lain, these quilled roses tak payah susah2 ukur paper strip tu berapa inci ke.. panjang berapa ke.. pendek kata, ini bunga rose suka hati ukuran dia. hehehehe.

Mula-mula potong kertas bentuk bulat. Saya suka potong square dulu sebab lepas tu senang potong shape oval tu. Shape tu tak perlu cantik, senget2 pun takpe (itu yang akan buat rose tu nampak natural nnt)


Pastu gunting oval shape itu tadi mengikut gambar di bawah (bentuk swirl).


Then start gulung kertas dari point A ke point B. Sebab saya ni pemalas orgnye hehe so saya guna tangan je untuk gulung (boleh guna quilling needle @ toothpick juga)..


Bila habis gulung sampai point B dan bunga ros dah terbentuk, boleh gam dekat tanda arrow. Trim hujung point B sesedap rasa.


Untuk kelopak2 paling luar sekali (tujuan: senang gam atas art projects), potong 2 heart shapes (2 heartshapes= 1 rose) dan gunting mengikut gambar.

(sebab tu la ros ini juga sangat sesuai untuk mereka2 yang patah hati ye kawan-kawan)
Then silangkan 2-2 belah heart tu punya kaki dan gam. Pastikan kawan2 dapat bentuk cam gambar no 9.


So sekarang, kita ada 1 rose dan 2 kelopak rose untuk ditampal bersama.


Ambil satu kelopak rose dan letakkan gam dekat kaki dia. gamkan bersekali dengan rose macam ni..


Lepas tu letak gam lagi sekali kat bawah tapak rose tu dan lekatkan satu kelopak lagi. Eloknya kalau dapat tapak mcm triangle kat bawah tapak rose tu tapi kalau x dpt pun takpe.


Bila kering, inilah hasilnya. Sebab tapak tu tadi kita dh buat, jadi rose tu dh boleh berdiri dengan kaki sendiri. Bila siap boleh simpan bersama2 embellishment yg lain. Boleh guna untuk scrapping, cardmaking, bookmark dll tempat lagi.


Selamat mencuba! dah try buat nanti poslah sekuntum untuk saya!

*tgh bengong.

Monday, May 26, 2008

miyyah: this is definitely something that i want to blog about
miyyah: this is definitely something that i want to blog about
miyyah: but I cant
miyyah: but I cant
miyyah: something I want to talk to someone about
miyyah: something I want to talk to someone about
miyyah: but i dont have anyone anymore
miyyah: but i dont have anyone anymore
miyyah: everyone's busy with their families
miyyah: everyone's busy with their families
miyyah: that left me, alone
miyyah: that left me, alone
miyyah: with nobody to talk to
miyyah: with nobody to talk to
miyyah: except to myself.
miyyah: except to myself.
miyyah: sad
miyyah: sad
miyyah: isnt it?
miyyah: isnt it?

Friday, May 23, 2008

Dear God, the Most Merciful,

I know You are listening. I know You monitor my every move. I know You know what I have in my mind, my heart, and my soul. I know that You understand what I'd gone through, and what I'm going through. I wanted You to know how much I love You even when I know that it wasn't even enough to be compared to how much You have loved me. And taken care of me.

Dear God, the Most Forgiving,

I know I've done so many wrongs in my past and I know You know that as well. And You know how I won't forget how You gave me the chance to change, and the chance to make things right again. I felt humbled of Your concern, dear God, and ashamed of how small I am compared to Your Greatness.

Dear Allah, the Most Knowing,
Please, dear Allah, allow me to stay in love with You, and stay loyal to Muhammad's teachings. Please, dear Allah, allow me to stay in the sweetness of your blessings, and in the closeness of your religion.

And please dear Allah, for only You know.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Saturday, May 17, 2008

11 Jamadilawal 1428 - 11 Jamadilawal 1429


Emak genap setahun hari ini. And not one single day passes by that we don't think of her.

Friday, May 16, 2008

*Receive my simple gift of Teacher's Day
wrapped with SINCERITY
tied with CARE
and sealed with a PRAYER
to keep you SAFE and WELL.

Happy Teacher's Day! (to me as well)


*sms
Home sweet home.

Reached KT on Thursday morning and will be back to KL on Saturday night. Had a blast with Lisa at Secret Recipe KT yesterday. Mula-mula cuma makan keklah kononnya pastu siap tambah tomyam kung. Hahaha. Balik rumah kenyang sampai malam.

We talked a lot about updates and uptakes of our lives, and she seemed to be less than convinced when I told her about my unbelievable life so far.

"Lisa tahu saya dah lama gila-gila-gila-gila-gila tak keluar rumah?"
"Huh? Tak percayalah."
"Ye. Saya pun tak percaya hehe. Rasa macam pompuan melayu terakhir je."
"Wah. Ingatkan semenjak dok kl Miyyah makin kuat berjalan."
"Lama dah tak keluar. Kalau keluar pun pergi kelas (mengajar) dan pergi sekolah (belajar)."
"Huh. Memang tak percaya. Bukan ke Miyyah suka jalan?"
"Hahahaha. Bz sangat2. Ada jugak keluar sesekali. takat pergi tesco bawak budak2 pegi jalan2. Kadang2 pegi bookstores. Pegi rumah makcik. Percaya tak?"
"Fuyyo. Macam tak percaya."
"Jangankan lisa, saya pun tak percaya nih."

Sungguh. Dah beberapa minggu (or was it months) rasa tersangat2lah malasnya nak keluar rumah. Minggu depan dah kena buat appointment dengan Dr F on thesis so before the day comes, kena prepare on the readings and readings and readings.

Monday, May 12, 2008

I'm experimenting on a new addictive hobby: digital scrapbooking. Been too addicted to scrapping papers before but I've discovered this new hobby that allows me to explore Adobe Photoshop CS2 (I haven't downloaded CS3 yet).

So, I've spent almost the whole day editing, copying and surfing for scrapbooking freebies. So to start with, this is one of the earliest digiscraps I've made (also happens to be my current wallpaper.) Enjoy!



Saturday, May 10, 2008

On one sunny morning in May 2005 2004, I became the first caller of a radio station and dedicated this poem to my mum in celebration of Mother's Day. It has created a little bit of chaos among our close families who happened to listen to it, and everytime she was asked about it, she just smiled. When I asked her on her opinion, all she said was "You spoke too fast." But that was enough to know that she's proud of it.

And on last year's Mother's Day, she was lying on the hospital bed in CCU, IJN, with wires all over her body, relying heavily on oxygen mask, and with a heart that beat so weak. She was unconscious the whole day.

Whenever I was outside in the lobby, and watched passerby bringing in flowers and gifts and cards, I thought I saw smiles. And hope. And happiness. And how I wish I could feel the same. Later that night I remembered going for dinner at Secret Recipe with ayah, Hafiz and Lisa and the place was filled with families celebrating that one special person in their lives. And ironically, we were there, secretly and desperately praying that we won't have to lose ours.

She passed away 15 days later.


(Untuk Allahyarham bonda Hjh Wan Jariah Hj Wan Yaacob, moga-moga kekal di sisi terbaik Yang Maha Esa, Insya Allah.)

Tunggukan aku di sini
Bersama harum kasih kasturi
Meresap dari sepi malam
Hingga hujung dinihari
Tunggukan aku di hentian itu
Bersama debar degup jantungmu
Bergetar dari pinggir subuh
Hingga merah senja
Tunggukan aku di teduh angin
Bersama bayu murni cinta
Menyapa dari terik suria
Hingga redup purnama
Tunggukan aku ibu
Kerana rindu ini mahu datang
Padamu.

20 April 2005.


Al-fatihah.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

It wasn't easy.

Ayah's younger sister, Teh passed away on 1st of May 2008, which was 28 days before mum's demise turned 1. She was hospitalised for a small operation to remove stones. To cut the story short, the operation resulted infections that spread so fast. She was in ICU for 2 weeks before finally awake and removed to the normal ward. But her condition later worsen and she passed away at the age of 56. She remained unmarried till her last breath.

It came so sudden I don't even know what to think. Like ayah, the intake of the news was a bit slow on us. Perhaps, we've experienced a much painful episode in our family last year. It was the first in ayah's family so everybody was really taken aback with the news. Pa and Chudah could hardly control their emotions.

The last time I met Teh was when last month, during her transit at Kak Yong's house before going to Seoul, Korea with Mak Ani. I remember spending a whole morning with them and brought them to Alam Sentral as Teh wanted to shop. She bought new camera with new mp3 for her car and she also bought a new phone. The next day, the last day I saw her was when I sent both of them to the airport. That was the last time.

She was buried at a closeby cemetery near Tok's house. Me, Nahar, Asyraf and my couz Kiki went back with Ayah Cik at 1.30 pm as she was scheduled to be buried at around 5.30. We were 5 minutes late, as people were dispersed at around 6. Dah takde rezeki nak jumpa.

Tok, who was suffering from dimentia, seemed to have the instinct that something went on in her house. A mother's instinct, I guess. Plus, Teh was the one who took care of her needs everyday (as she could not walk anymore).

"Tok nampak. Orang tidur atas katil. Cantik orangnya. Orang mati jangan nangis. Insya Allah, masuk syurga." And she went on and on, describing the beautiful heaven.

And on the way back, there was news on the radio saying that my former VVVIP big boss passed away in LA.

Al-fatihah.

Perhaps that was Allah's way of reminding us, that we don't live forever.